i can't !

It is not easily for me to forgive you. seriously.
even there is a sunnah said ' sedangkan nabi ampunkan umat '..
but. it is hard actually for me to forget what you did last time !
NO, I CAN'T !  
but, it doesn't shows that i am grudge with you. no. i'm not.
No more text ask for my forgiveness ok.
*sigh.